Tuesday, January 30, 2007
hrmms. hies.yeah, wadever.i'm bored todae.wore the other type of skirt to school.its damn irritating laaa.i got a new nickname, sya montel.hahahs, funny laa. but cute perr. ((:thanks to those who gave me dat name.weeee~okay, so yeah.had to do CWO just now after school.also tmr, and thurs. for 2 hrs. dats pathetic laa.absconding? wadever laa ehs.so just cleaned up a while.and waited until the time reaches 5.the guys got caning, i guess.bla bla blahs, i'm just soo plain lazy to post.can i not go for tmr's CWO?cnfm finish late laa, den later wanna go to national stadium.leceh siak.but till now, my ez-link is still from the teacher.i got no idea which teacher.fucking hell betol.i feel sad. i feel pathetic. i'm dissapointed in myself. i regretted having this unexpected feeling for him. i cant take this anymore. i can feel my heart crack every single time i see him, i dont know why. i feel deres something wrong. i cant keep it to myself. its killing me slowly.i am really really really soo sorry to myself, sya. dat i cant keep dis promise which i made. i've made up my mind, i'm gonna tell him the truth. wadever his reactions is, i should just accept it. but should i tell him face to face or just by sms or by calling him? i'm confused. maybe not face to face. i'm not brave enough to face him. if i'm really gonna tell him, maybe in a few days time, or maybe next week.but when i think back, i cant bear to face him everyday later on after the day i confessed. please, i'm soo sorry.i'm off.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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10:35 PM
Monday, January 29, 2007
hellohhs.hahahs, now chatting with dzulkifli.funny laaas.but its superb funn laa chatting with him.about some stuffs. heheheh. ;))wakkaka.but ferst of all, to my frend, yan.i'm soooosooosoo sorry laaaa.for not meeting you just now.sorry to keep you waiting laa. )):please please please la forgive me.so todae, had school.went to 7-11 to buy 2 pkts of ferrero rocher.sofia told me to buy.its actually for dzulkifli and raudhah for their birthday.well, happy belated birthday to dzulkifli.and happy birthday to raudhah. aites. ((:den bla bla blahs.altogether, 4 teachers tegor me bcos of my hair.wadever shits lar ehs.so todae, I'M A RECORD-BREAKER!dats sooo "yayyy" laaa.thanks to mdm sahrul for labelling me dat.6 offence in a day? hahah.fingernails, skirt, blouse, eyeliner, unclipped fringe & dyed fringe.wad the hell laa.den bla bla blahs.mother tongue lesson fun.no more jiwang2 sgt.so i'm not emotional anymore, but i'm crazy.i'm singing and singing, until amirah canot tahan.wakakaka, sorry mira. ((:den after school, went out to century sq.ate at long john. yummy laa.i'm sooo hungry dat time.kept on laughing wid dayang laa.talked some funny stuffs.den when going home, me, amirah and syafiqah did some silly stuffs laa.but funn gilerks.den me and syafiqah take 39 home.snap a picture in the bus, but hell laa.our face mcm kene cramp gituk.hahah, our face funny laa. memalukan.i dont wanna post it up here.okaylaa, and yayness!wednesday going to national stadium laaa.wid tina, her sis and dont know who else more to watch the finals.singapore vs. thailand.singapore win okay? pretty pretty pleaseee.till here, i gtg.mom's calling out loud for my name.oooopsie! ((:or maybe i have 7 offence todae.i shall not state down my 7th offence laa.
' ' 'syakrazy-.
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10:30 PM
Sunday, January 28, 2007
heyyas.i'm too bored now.i'm too bloated too.gawsh, all thanks to dat cheesy bread.which tastes sooooo yummy. ((:so for todae, wake up at 10+.watched tv for a while.den had breakfast.and bla bla blahs.okay la, i'm really not in the mood of posting.wadever shits la eh.and shit laa, tmr schooling.and okaaayy, magen, happy advanced bdae.and thanks for dat tip okaii?thanks soo much deary frend. (((:' ' 'syakrazy-.
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10:31 PM
Saturday, January 27, 2007
weeeeeee~ singapore got into the finals! (((:dats great laaa.okay, so now.i'm waiting for my song to be uploaded at imeem.bcos the song i wanted is not at iwebmusic.and i want to change the song here.well, i'm bored.sooo bored.too boredd.i dont know wad to post.todae, had tuition.ate pasta before going out. and dats superb!gerald didnt come for tuition todae.same as for tmr.awwww, i'm bored laa.so ate chocolate non-stop at tuition.yummy.den went back home, alone.errrs. dats why i want gerald to come.so yeah, reached home.wasn't allowed to get into the house.urghs, guess why?bcos sis was mopping the floor and its not dry yet.so i took my wallet and threw my bag to the sofa.went to west plaza, drew out money which eldest sis told me to.den walked back home.and at last, get into the house.and ouhs fucking hell laa.thought of doing my art thingy.but i left my pictures in my color pencil box.and dat color pencil is in liyana's locker.ishks. so wadever.pndi2 la aku jwb ngan cekgu on monday.so den went out.unlock my small bike and cycled to pasir ris park.drizzling, its soo cold.sat in the rocks, by the beach.den cycled to the swing thingy place.sit on the swing, listen to song.den sing2 mcm org gilerk sorg2.well, who cares?the rains making me soo cold.but i just sat dere staring blankly.den since its gonna be 6 soon. and i'm starting to feel sicked.cycled back home. shivered a lil'.at home, went straight to my room.just lay down on my bed to relax my mind.headache seyy. till now, still got a lil'.okay lah.i'm too bored.i might as well go and sleep.anyway, since when i get soo hooked to evanescence?i've been listening most to evanescence songs.hrmmms.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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11:31 PM
Friday, January 26, 2007
thank god its friday. ((:shheeshh. finally laaa.no waking up early in the morning.but still, tmr having tuition.gawshh.hokay, so yeah.wad happened todae.or yesterday?well yesterday.went to NAFA. got dat bag. yeah, i like.and nelson thought i'm a smoker.ouh please, i dont smoke. okay?muker innocent ginik dier ckp isap rokok?! crap!wahahah. prasaan jek sya. ((:busy chatting. plus watching music videos of evanescence.i just didnt post thanks to blogger itself.it lagged.so i just sign out and switched off the laptop.wadever la.den todae, raining in the morning.its freaking cold walking to school without jacket.just brought the umbrella.den in school, only 3 of us in the class brought dat NAFA bag?!dats like sooo mrepek laa. smuer bobal werld la.smuer smangat wanna use dat bag todae.but ended up only me, razeef and amsyar use it.wadever shits la.chit chat, eat chocs.den bla bla blahs.mother tongue, struggling over dat composition on 'one dilemma'.and my handwriting suck! no offence la.reccess time, walked around.talked about people getting possessed.eeeeekk. scaryy.after reccess, suddenly my name is being called out.a lil' panic. thought wad laaaa.skalik dey wanna take picture to update on wadever thingy bla bla blahs.went over to music room by taking the lift.den the lift stopped at level 2, and the teachers are dere.uh-oh. ahaha.den ms chin asked a stupid qn, " mr joe, are they all injured?"hahah. funny la.so we quickly comb our hair and stuffs.lucky i got mirror. phew.den take pic, my hair's obviously red.hahah. can see it in the picture.den called for saifuldin in class.den i went back dere.when walking back to classroom.walked back with ain, amalina and nasrul.they're 3e2 and i'm the only 3e1.walked slowly through long way.nasrul gilerk la. haha.den amalina proceed to history room for her history class.while ain and nasrul went back to their class for geography.and i went back to class for maths? dats soooo...... errrr.i suck at math laaaa.hate it man. fucking hell betol.den journal, and bye bye.went home, chill, relax, eat.den went to tina's house.den went to the 358 bustop, waited for sofia.went in to school, for drama.and bla bla bla.grouped up with natasya, haziqah, adila and sai kiat.our acting is all screwed up.i'm totally lost in the first attempt.and so after drama, wasted time.me, tina and sofia went to west plaza.they bought some stuffs.den we walked back to 358 bustop.sat dere and hangout.buat mcm rumah sendirik? haha.den bla bla bla, at last we went home.den i went online.den den den i went to west plaza.but the moment i reached dere, i got no idea wad i wanna buy.so ended up buying a cheese waffle and coke.and the cheese waffle, OMG. its damn nice laaa.i'm soooo gonna buy it again tmr either before or after tuition.yayness.den when wanna walk back home.saw mrs khiu and dont know who standing around dere talking.i guess she recognized me, so dats why she stared at me all the way.hrmmmmmms.okay, why are people around calling me emo?am i tooooo emo in school?till here.wanna grab some food in the kitchen.' ' 'syakrazy-.dayan, thanks for all your help. i appreciate your advices all his while. and thanks soo much for guiding me in my life these few days. even when i dont even know who are you actually. but anything, just thanks for being a good friend, a good listener and a good adviser.but. . . . sometimes i wonder. where are the rest? here i am crying alone in my own dark world, feeling lonely, frustrated, dissapointed in myself, stress. i feel like its not me when i looked into the mirror. i feel like its not me when i'm happy. all those smiles and laughters from me are like fake. day by day, my heart seemed to be more aching. aching from all those questions and mixed feelings i had. but who cares? even when i'm crying out for help, screaming my lungs out and slitting my wrists. who cares? nobody. just nobody.and, i'm hurt. hurt by my ownself doings. i'm stupid. i regret having dat feeling which is unexpected. but its too late. i cant avoid dat feeling already. i have to go through it once again like last time. thanks alot to myself. furthermore, i've promised myself. and i've promised dat i'll try keep up to dat promise. i promised myself not to forgive whoever dat person who's the backstabber. and if no one is in the wrong, and the problem come from me itself, i can never forgive myself. i can never forgive myself if i'm the cause of my own problem.i'm denying about something, and i'll deny it till as long as i can.
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10:02 PM
oh. hellos.i dont know wad to do.wakakaka.okay, later having drama.meeting tina and sofia at 2.30.i'm sleepy.i dont feel like going.i feel like sleeping. ((:so yesterday, didnt blog bcos of blogger itself.its lagging laaaaa.it cant even load.so wadever shits, i just sign out from msn and stuffs and off the laptop.binget taos.hrmms. will post the full thingy about yesterday and todae later at night.i'll be back online after i get back from school.tatas! (((:' ' 'syakrazy-.
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2:08 PM
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10:41 PM
hellohhs.just posting for yesterday ferst.didnt use the laptop la deii.eldest sis brought it to her friend's house.so me and second sis were sooooo damn bored.nothing to do, just nothing.urghs.so about yesterday.cant really remember wad happened in school la.i'm kind of short term memory.den bla bla blahs, after school, went home straight.and wad else, sleep lah.my daily routine.den wake up, went to west plaza with sis.bought a ice cream downstairs.den saw adila, kamilia and some other guys waiting for the bus.den kabo disturbed me. should i call him kabo?i dont know how to spell his name la.ishks, den heard people like calling me.tot who calling who, so i just ignored la.but den today, razeef say he's the one calling me.he say he saw me from the bus stop.den bleahs.so todae, went to school.saw faidhi, laughed.bcos of my yesterday's dream.okay, wad i rmb is dzul, jeffri, tina and some others which i dont recognized their faces appeared in my dream.den halfwae in my dream, dzul changed to faidhi.and the dream became much weirder.gawsh, its weird, starnge, funny la.i shall not put it down here. ((:so, sat on faidhi's table watching them playing card games.while browsing thru magazine.den bla bla blahs.mr tan. told me to dye my hair back to black.again? siao.how many times sia.so den bleahs.too much of laughing la in class.all bcos of razeef, ramadhan and jeffri.did silly stuffs.hahahahs.den after reccess, kendra did s'thing to me.and saiful saw it!gawsh, and he called us lesbian.ishks.amsyar told me to check my hp wallpaper.and. . . surprisingly, my face is gone.its changed to the guys pics.ishks3. tk tau malu betol la korg.den in class, saiful was being a gay?sitting beside razeef acting like a bapok.omg, i kept on laughing looking at them.den saiful went back to his place.and called me. i turned around.and omg, he did s'thing. he did it a few times.amirah saw it and we laughed.his facial expression was like, cheeky?hahahah.den malay class, emo sia.only amirah, dayang and wani knows how emo i am.amirah smpi tk leh angkat. wakakaka.den bla bla blahs.physics class, i placed my head on the table, resting my eyes.and i'm half-asleep.suddenly got ppl hit my table.i tot mr. haniff, skalik dzul.eeeeerrrrrrr, binget tao.terkejot skejap.dats sooo mean of him laa.den after school, went to century sq.with amirah, syafiqah, dayang and dzul.ate at LJS, saw faidhi, dzulkifli, and who else eh? i forget laa.yummmy laaaa. ((:shared some stories wid amirah.those emotional stories.den did our drama planning.den planned about our shopping thingy before c'est la vie.hahahah.i want to go far east and bugis laaaa.i also wanna have a look on those living dead dolls again.weeee~den went home.took 39 with syafiqah.den at home bla bla blahs.went out again, to loyang point.ok, so just now.chatted with syafiqah, yan, jeffri, and adill at msn.hahah, and i guess i insulted someone.ouh yes, i did.i'm soo mean laaa.okay, i guess till here.i'll post the guys pics and vids up next.which they took during reccess time with my hp.without me knowing. posing and all.hahah, crap.maybe some of my pics too. ((:' ' ' syakrazy-.
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9:02 PM
Monday, January 22, 2007
elooshes.gawsh, i feel so sick laaa.my nose is stuffy.wonder where the hell i put my inhaler.i cant find it.or i dont even bother finding it?hahah.sooo sicked mann.todae, in school.our class was called to sit in front bcos we're the last class to assemble at the quadrangle.wadever.had art ferst, the teacher was late.she forget the timetable had changed.anyway, sorry bcos i'm calling every teacher by 'the teacher'.i just cant remember the teacher's names.den maths, gawsh. bborinng laaa.den mother tongue.gawsh, liyana was soooo excited about it.hahah, kan liyana? kn? kn? heheh. ((:and soo, amirah, dayang and wani agreed.agreed about my storyline.about the friendship thingy.and i'm the scriptwriter.and our supporting actor is dzulfiqar?not confirmed.and alaaaa, we must do compo seyy.titled 'satu dilemma'. which is actually 'one dilemma'.wth am i suppose to write.i got no idea.thought of writing about romance, but den.....cekgu latifah say, no romance.ishks, den wanna write about wad seyy.haishhhs.den bla bla blahs.got punished by mrs rajen at the end of the day.hmphs, menyampah.need to stay in class extra half an hour after school.den went home wid amirah and syafiqah.went to 7-11, bought a choc.den walked home.at home, tried to do the script for the drama thingy.but den, fell asleep.not even for half an hour.hahahhhs.wanna continue, but got no idea.so wadever shits.btw, i still havent dyed my hair black.AGAIN and AGAIN.stewpid teachers.how many times must i dye it black?buang mase aku jek.it actually supposed to be black by todae.but who cares.and yay.me and tina gonna be wearing black.well, tina, all black.me, almost all black.syafiqah, red.dayang, maybe black.amirah, no idea.and ouh yarh aniah, if me or faezah take fashion.we can become ure designer of baju pengantin.hahahs. if u want. ryte? ryte? ryte? (((:i'm off.' ' ' syakrazy-.
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10:27 PM
Sunday, January 21, 2007
wollahhs.hrmms, i'm sooooo damn fucking bored now.gawsh, i've gained weight back.ishks, i hate it.ate too much la nie.well, wad happened todae really tests my patience.so todae, woke up at 8. and bathe.den get ready to go out to geylang market.well, its soooo packed dat i can hardly walk.and alamak, naekkn darah aku jek.people just dont wanna give way.since i'm stucked dere and cant move anywhere else.might as well they move to aside and let me go ferst.so dat everybody can also walk.so inconsiderate siak.if they can be inconsiderate, so can i.i can just push the trolley and hit others acting nothing happened.but i just be patient jek.den bought some food home.at home, eat.and eat toooooooo much. just too much.until i gained weight. )):den relax2, and went out again.went to west plaza, bought my colour pencils.den went home, did my art assignment.and oh yar, about my art research thingy.lucky liyana found the pics.gawsh, i didnt even found one.i felt so guilty la. she did most of the work.den went out again for tuition.hokay, about tuition.hate it. hate it. hate it.screw him.i hate dat teacher lahs. he suck.he's the teacher dat took ever mr. azman.mr. azman, pleeeaseee.i want you back. we want you back.i love your teaching.pretty pretty pleeaseee. (:so went back after tuition.and bla bla blahs.at home, ate.and did nothing else.watched tv.and went online.i've hoped and wished.but it had never happened.so, dream on sya.forget about it.i hate myself.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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9:35 PM
Saturday, January 20, 2007
hellohahs. ((:
i felt so happy todae.
happy happy happy.
thanks dearest babes and dude.
weeeeehehe!
so about todae, wake up early in the morning.
actually around 9+.
bathe, den spend my own sweet time in front of the mirror.
den fried some stuffs, and eat.
yay!
den went out, to tuition.
raining seyys, benci aku.
well, i'm the ferst to reach.
dat seldom happens.
den raihaan came and some m&m chocs with me.
awwwww, can i have more?
tk cukop larhhhs.
den bla bla blahs.
just did some worksheets.
and went off to century sq after dat.
took 291, dah smagat nk naek bus.
den my ez-link canot use, bcos insufficient amount.
sungguh memalukan kene turon bus alek.
so went to topped up my card.
den waited for the bus again.
rreached tamp int.
rushed to the meeting place.
until i looked like as if i just finished running.
and i realised i wasn't the last to reach.
dzul maseh lom smpi, and when he came.
he was walking so relaxed gituk.
ishks, tahan aku rushing.
den we went in.
we got our seats. 14, 15, 16 and 17.
and i took seat no. 15!
yayness! one of my fave. no.
dzul got 14, amirah got 16 and syafiqah got 17.
watched ghost tunnel.
amirah and syafiqah tgk movie semcm.
until they cover their faces and their legs on the seats.
its my ferst time not hugging someone's hand.
as amirah was busy covering her face.
i used to hug and sit closely towards sis when i'm scared watching it.
and yay larhs, i'm not scared dis time.
only got shocked a few times.
my legs on the seats bcos i'm feeling kinda cold.
den bla bla blahs.
we decided to go eat bcos we're hungry.
dzul's going to hougang to meet his frend.
den we ended up following him to hougang.
anyway, i miss hougang.
took 72, waited for him at hougang int.
he went to fetch his frend.
went to toilet, den find somewhere to sit down.
and ader org gilerk seyys.
looking at us smiling.
showing us a phonecard which picture of a woman.
den we walked away and he's like following us.
but a he den stopped and proceed somewhere else.
hahahs, funny lahs. but scary.
den got dis one guy.
stare at the three of us atas bawah.
pikir dier bnyk peyy handsome pe. ishks.
menyampah aku.
its raining heavily.
den dzul smsed saying dat if we want to go and eat, we go ferst.
so we are like running under the rain crossing the road.
holding each others hands. funny la.
went to hougang mall.
awwww, i miss hougang mall.
which i went wid my dearests in s'goon.
almost everytime after school.
*sobs sobs* i miss them sooo much.
so we went to LJS.
its damn cold down dere.
but when i smell the food.
ishk, teros nk sejuk sgt.
dzul came by wid his frend, which is nizam later.
so we ate.
den shoot ices. which i aimed wrongly and hit the wrong person.
but lucky dat person didnt feel anything. phew.
den we decided to went back.
talked quite alot with syafiqah and amirah.
funn seyys. never felt dat close to them.
took 72 back to tamp.
we're chit chatting all the way.
den deres dis one typical mat.
sitting the back row.
keep on staring. alamak.
buat darah aku up lahs.
he stared at dzul, den nizam, den me, syafiqah and amirah.
i hate it when people do dat.
den amirah talked to dinie on the phone.
about the plan.
den bla bla blahs, went back home from tampines.
we took 39.
hokay, about the c'est la vie thingy.
gawsh, when is our shopping?
so i'm going with the girls.
syafiqah, amirah and i hope dayang can make it too.
BUT.... oh no!
they planned to wear pink and red?
all of us who are going togeder.
no, i want to do shopping, but to buy black clothes.
not pink, i have much pink at home already.
alaaahhhs, and ouh ya. tina will shurely cnfm plus guarantee wont wear pink.
i know dats not her colour.
okay, so why not the three of them wear pink, and tina and me wear black?
okay wad.
or maybe all wear black?
but they dont want black.
hrmmmmms, wadever lahs.
okay lahs.
i'm sleepy already.
i'll post the pics i manage to snap just now.
actually deres just two of it.
our tickets. dzul, me, amirah and syafiqah.
and btw, i lose weight!!yayyyy! let me lose more.goodbye.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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10:24 PM
Friday, January 19, 2007
alohahs.ermms, hungry sia.now eating biscuits.hahahs.while chatting wid dzul.and smsing amirah.arghhh! aku lapar.discussing about tmr.shit larhs. finished tuition at 3 p.m.den proceed straight to century sq. i guess.ishks. must be fast2.pleeaseee mr. kamal, dont let us off late.pretty pretty pleeasee. (((:so about todae.had school.ferst was p.e lesson.but had assembly before dat.and its like ouh so boring larhs.lagik2 biler mr ng bobal.sleepy seyyys.he was like telling us all the stories from the whole newspaper.wth? hahs.chit chatt with nicolas.den when p.e lesson, had jumping jacks(is dat how its spelt?).den run around the school, one round only.ferstly, all jogged, den walked.den suddenly all speed up.den at last all walked.so i decided to run, smangat siket.hahahh. and i got ferst in class.ferst arh eh. hahah. wooooohooo!~wowweee~ ((:i guess if they're running, i'll end up to be the few last persons.hahahs. sya smangat!den cme lesson, den english.english fun larhs.me and dayang scribbled and doodled on our student diary.yayness!and reccess, brought my dear notebook along.scared the guys might read the stuffs inside.i'm dead if they read it. soo DEAD.den had mother tongue lesson.did some compre.and about the malay PT.gawsh, who's our supporting actor?wad's our story gonna be?urghs, i dont know.den after school, went home wid tina.at home, eat. weee~ yummy lahs.nyce nyce. (:den meet up with her around 1.20 p.m.went back to our class, meet up with other girls.for the class deco.planning to do checkered. yay! love it.only i kinda dislike the choice of colours.so i drew some squares on the wall.den got spiders seyy, until i screamed and shouted like mad ppl.ishks, den went for drama.grouped up with tina, sofia and tasya.and okay, my acting was pathetic lahs.i'm not in the mood of acting lah just now.didnt talk much in the act.and okay, 3rd march to 16th march.had the play dat mr brian directed.at alliance francaise theatre.we're gonna be the ones helping out.and we'll get 3 hrs of CIP thingy.dats great lah.but please lahs, not on 15 march.pretty pretty pleeeaseeee.its my bdae lah.stress arh, got so many stuffs coming up.the trip to NAFA lah.my malay performance task, drama thingy.the c'est la vie thingy.the play 'under the dragon moon'.and more lah.gawsh, stress mann.and alarhhhs, dayang, amirah and dont know who else read my notebook.paiseyy sias.got soo many stuffs i wrote inside.memalukan seyy.wani already knows about my secret.amirah lah, go tell her.please wani, keep quiet about it.i dont want anybody else to know about it.anyway, can i do shopping before march holidays?before the c'est la vie.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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10:30 PM
alohahs. ((:gawsh, i'm tired seyys.but not sleepy, for the ferst time.'cause i usually get sleepy by the time i get home after school.now chatting wid marco.okay, i'm just posting now 'cause i'm bored.bored bored bored.had drama just now.and i'll just post about today later at night.i think i better go and bathe now.'cause i feel so uncomfortable.its hot, my body's kinda sticky and stuffs.byebye. (((:' ' 'syakrazy-.
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6:29 PM
Thursday, January 18, 2007
hellohhs.gawsh, i'm hungry. super hungry.))):i just ate in the afternoonn justt now.ishks. alaarhhs.todae in school, as usual.dzul put chocolate on my face.which i didnt realise it at ferst.i thought its originally dere, but how come?i didnt eat any chocolates.rupernyer, ishks. i got tricked by him.errrrrrrr.den had lessons as usual.and for POA, for the ferst time ever since the ferst lesson, i understand wad the hell she's talking about.phew. lucky lucky. ((:about maths lesson, AKU BINGET TAU TAKS.my hp was not silent, i dont know how come.its mysterious.den got ppl call. unknown number.at ferst i thought its not my hp eventhough if its not silent.bcos the ringtone is different.but i can feel the vibration.lucky dat mr. kek nvr hear my hp ring.i quickly off-ed it. ishks.i got so scared seyys if kena confiscate or wadever.until my hands shaky. even my teeth.bodoh pey manusia.skalik, aniah also got ppl call.the same number.so i suspect it must be somebody from our class la.but binget seyys. lucky i switched it off in time.den the guys are like laughing and bla bla blahs.tk klakar okay.dah la bongkar bag org. hmphs.i should rmb to bring my dear notebook with soo many stuffs inside along for reccess next time.i'm just soo scared if any of them read it.i'm sooooooo gonna be DEAD.and also, alim called me emo.emo? ouh pls. siket2 je larhs. hehehs. ((:and next week, thursday.got trip for the art students.we goingg to NAFA's open house.mcm malas gituk nak pegi.about the c'est la vie.ishks, me and amirah still havent wrote how many tickets we want.hahahs, nvm. tmr can.den after school, alamak, irritating bergerro larhs.keep on calling my phone lagik.dah lah my prepaid damn low.den called back using amirah's hp.binget seyys.nmpk sgt kiter dah tau saper yg call2 nie smuer.went to tampines wid amirah, dayang and syafiqah.area amirah's house dere.looked out for cakes. survey2.expensive seyys. its gonna cost more than $70.belom termasok duit makan.den syafiqah bought a choco fudge cake.in a box for $2. she fed us too.nice seyys, i've been craving for choco cakes and i got it!yayness! ((((((:thanks syafiqah sayang.den we walked back.to the bustop.raining seyys. tk gereks.took 39 back home.at home, eat. den did my homewerk.cheyy, sya rajin. (:den wrote stuffs in my dearest notebook.den bathe. and get ready for tuition.hokay lah, i gtg.goodbye syg-sygkus. (((:' ' 'syakrazy-.
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10:30 PM
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
gawsh, i dont feel good todae.))):hmphs.i dont know how i should describe todae.deres no meaning todae.arghhhhh! i can go crazy sia like dis.aku bingets.okay lahs, so for todae.dont need to describe school as its still gonna be the same everyday.but i'm talking too much crap in school todae.maybe because i'm too sad of wad happened.to make me feel alright, i guess i just let out wads on my mind.i talked, i laughed, i talked, i laughed.i'm too stressed up i gotta admit it.and ishks, terok seyys. razeef nyer tangan luka.can see the flesh a lil' and some blood. eeee.after history class, went to canteen.chilled a while.den walked home.walked out of school with saiful, jeffri, salihin and nasir.den at home, eat ferst.and bla bla blahs.went to loyang point.and wadever shits more.so i wonder who called my hp just now.its private no.hrmms. sorry for not picking up the phone.i dont know wad else to post.i feel pathetic dis few days.i hate myself.and yan, thanks for being a good listener.and thanks for saying dat i'm not fat.HAHAHAHS.the sweetest thing in my life have just passed.and the hardest thing i'll ever have to do is walk away pretending i dont love you.seriously. i'll try my best.and dis is the second time i have to do dis.why me?forget it.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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9:56 PM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
hollahhs.i'm kinda sleepy and tired now.not chatting wid anybody.except for yan, just now.thanks yan, for the advices.but how seyy? how am i supposed to confess.i'm too scared for it.i dont wanna ruin wad i have now.haishhs.okay, so now currently looking thru yahoo.looking out for the movies.ader horror movie la deii!!but opening 1st february.but both korean ones.sorry lah, but i minat dat kind ones.there is 'Loft' and 'Ghost Tunnel'.i hope its interesting.yayness!! (((:so about school, its always the same.atiqah came todae. thought she got fever or wad.skalik sore eyes. ishks, seramnyer.reading period. mrs rajen(if dats how her name is spelt) came in to check on us.den she lie nag and stuffs.bag tk leh letak atas meja and bla bla bla.and she dont let me read the current book i'm reading.which is 'Devil's Harvest'. s'thing about ghosts, demons and stuffs.ehs, org nyer psl lahs nk bace buku aper.dierk tu sebok jeks.alarhs, buat bodoh lahs.maths, about indices and stuffs and bla bla blahs.i got to admit i suck at maths these days.in fact not only maths, but others too.POA, gawsh. cekgu tu betol2 biol.gilerks sehhs.got the lifeline thingy and she was counting from 10 to 1.and i have nobody in mind.and razeef was pressurizing me by forcing me to say dzul's name.so no choice, just say it out since i have no one in mind.den skalik dzul's being excused.so another person, i panic sehhs.den dis time atiqah force me to say razeef's name.so i just say it out.and alamak, nie cekgu bobal.... ishks.she say i like razeef. den ask razeef to answer me back with dear syahidah and bla bla blahs.ishks, terok sehhs.den mother tongue, did some compre.den off to reccess.and bla bla bla and so on and so forth.den history class, sejuk gilerks.i sit betol2 bawah the fan.just now in the morning thought of bringing my jacket.but u know, i'm always and forever with my lazy attitude.okay, den bleahs after school went back home with tina.and alarhhs, tina nak gi bugis dis saturday.i'm so pokai.nvm, i'm still in the process of saving my money.march holiday will come.i'm gonna do some shopping of clothes and stuffs.by march, i guess i'd have saved around $100+.yayness! lagipon skrg schooling days lahs.leceh nak kluar. no time.sat and sun ader tuition.but nk ajak saper seyy gi shopping?den at home, daily routine, SLEEP.weeehehehs! (((:den wake up checked my hp.and got smses from liyana and kendra.asking aboutt tmr's art lesson.kendra is always forever about her boi.ouhs, please please pleeeasee help me lose weight.i'm too short and fat.okay, till here.sorry abt those bla bla blahs thingy.i'm too lazy to type everything out.' ' 'syakrazy-.
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10:37 PM
Monday, January 15, 2007
hellohhs.i'm still sooo cold todae.but i'm stupid lahs.cold weather like dis i wear sleeveless and shorts.crazy lahs.hokay, i'm feeling kinda hungry now.i wanna eat.hahahs, okay.i also cant stop laughing now.all thanks to sis.she lahs, talk3 until the armpit hair all come out.hahahs.also about the osim car. hahahs.ever heard of it? hahahs.ok, i know its crap.so todae, had school as usual.atiqah's absent. so amirah sat at her place.classes are boring.POA lesson is a total boredom.ngantok siak. chittchat with amirah.ahahhs, fun lahs.she says dat even before she knows my secret, she already suspected about it.alaaarrhs, paisey seyys. malu taos.but fun larhs. we laughed a lot.den reccess time, syafiqah's skirt...okay, i shouldn't say dis out.den bla bla blahs.i almost fell asleep in physics lab.but lucky i've studied wad mr. haniif teached just now.to keep me awake, i vandalised the table.mcm biaser arhs.den english class, did the article and the compre.urghs, just did compre halfwae.den ramadhan and jeffri are talking crapp. haha.den bla bla blahs.at home, SLEEPP! yay!nice larhhs.den after dat, went to west plaza.bought stuffs, hershey's cookies and cream choc.weeee~ and i'm craving for a chocolate cake.and i really thought of buying just dat one small piece at the cake shop.but, nvm lahs. my bdae is 2 more months to go.todae is 15 jan, 2 more months is 15 march.i should just be patient.i want a cake pleeeaseee! ((:k, till now.wanna find some food.byes. (((:
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10:42 PM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
hellohhs.gawssshh, its freaking cold now.mcm nak gilerr.until just now i off the fan.its like in an air-con room.hokay, i'm kinda sleepy now.even when its just 10?hrmmmms, macam siang gituks.and alaaaahs, tmr schooling laaaas.kener bangon pagi!!ishhhhkks.malas seyys.so for todae, phew! had nice long sleep.from yesterday night until 12+ p.m in the afternoon.dats great okay.but by the time i wake up, my bolster is already on the floor.hahah, lucky not me.fahamkn2 je larhs.so den proceed to kitchen.kpo2 dere.sis made fried rice.ate it with chiken wings.yummy! ((:den after eating. did nothing.relax2. lie down on my bed looking out the window towards the rain.emotional sgt lah aku niks.den by the time around 2+.went to bathe. the water sejuk gilerks.den siap2.den go out, as usual. for tuition, science class.and at tuition, sort of fun.for the ferst one hour, my mind is werking.we're studying physics, and its easy!mr. azman just asked qns from gerald and nadya.not me! hahahah.bcos each time they canot answer the qn, i answer for them.weeee~den had our 10 mins break.went to 7-11 and bought an ice-cream.ice-cream? in a cold weather? i must be crazy.den back into the air-con classroom.ouhs, i'm crazy.for chemistry, my mind is totally blank!its not werking. its super duper slow.i cant get wad mr. azman's talking about.my mind is filled with big question marks.den bla bla blahs.went to mcdonalds after class, alone.urghs, wadever.bought a mchicken for myself.yummy yummy yummy! (((:i miss eating burgers.ate at bus stop while waiting for bus 39.pathetic sia. with all those mayos and vege comot2.hahahs, but wad to do.hungry babe..ate halfwae skalik the bus arrive.continue eating in the bus.let the other people see me enjoying the burger.hahahah!den ok lah, at home.shared some fried rice with mom.
mom fed me. weee~ manje per.watched the day after tomorrow.fuhlamak! terok seyys.but like watching movie.bcos i sat on my bed, but not eating popcorns.i eat the milo cereals.hahah.ironed my school uniform.k lah, i dont know wad the hell i wanna post actually.i just dump in wadever came to mind.and hokay, i'm still worried about our malay project.i panicked! padahal the deadline is by march. if i'm not wrong.saper nak jadi pelakon undangan.we need a guy, bcos our group is already all girls.me, dayang, amirah and wani. so we need a guy to be the supporting actor.who seyy? neither of us got an idea.i dont even know wads our story gonna be.okays, till here.mom's calling my name.as usual, asking me to go and sleep.and hey, i cant wait for march holidays.wanna do some shopping.and also its my birthday! yayness! (((((((:anybody wanna accompany me?' ' 'syakrazy-.
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10:05 PM
